People "do" change...many people like myself have made so many bad choices I their lives..

I have fallen many times and will probably fall again and again..

Does this make me less a human...or less a Christian? No...

Along with myself there are many people in my life that I love and care about that have fallen as well. Bad choices were made, steps in the wrong direction we taken.

But when it all comes down to it...before you start to point your finger...shut your mouth..and examine your OWN life..

Are YOU qualified to cast the first stone? Are you living or HAVE lived your life surrounded by perfection?

I doubt it....
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A navy seal can tread water in open sea for days...

It's a technique that has been perfected over the years...

I have witnessed it myself and stood in amazement at the stamina and fortitude of the human desire to succeed...

I was told by my many seal friends..
That in the times of adversity, when the presence of DEATH is imminent...when you have to tread or die...

At the very moment your head goes under for the first time..

There will swell within you a strength and power that no man can understand nor begin to explain..

He says: "you will be without food and water for days..." Nothing left in your system to feed your muscles...

But yet you will fight...you will even tread the waters in your deepest sleep..."

He said: "a human can go nearly 28 days without food and survive, but even the STRONGEST man can not survive without water for more than 3 days.."

There is water all around you..but you can drink.."

If you drink this water..

The microbes and deadly bacteria from all the sea life waste will destroy you from the inside out...within hours you will become disoriented..as if you are drunk..some become violent and will kill anyone treading close by....

your internal organs begin to shut down..your brain begins to swell..the pain is excruciating... Your eardrums bust from the pressure and blood pours from your mouth and ears..

At this time everyone around him is swimming as fast as they can away from him simply because of the blood in the water...

But they can not escape him! Why? He now has a type of super human strength...

The bacteria releases all of the bodies stored adrenaline in a 10 min bust of strength that no one can explain..

But how do they survive 4 and 5 days atread in the waters...?

This I amazing...your body filters a limited quantity of this deadly fluid through your skin as you are submerged within the waters...

the draw back is believe it or not you will slowly become heavier and heavier even with the weight loss...from lack of food..

This is where your will to survive becomes the greatest ally you will ever know..

Why am I telling you all of this...?

I'm sure you already know...

Life has a way of putting us in a tread-wake position...in the midst of the waters of our battle filled lives....

we see things around us that we believe in our hearts that will make us feel better...

but in all actuality will literally destroy us....

It can destroy our reputations..

our health..

the respect others have for us...

If we drink of this deadly water...

where will our future end up...?

Will our mate one day judge us for our past addition to the deadly fluid...?

But on the other hand if we refrain..

and fight...tread..and believe...

Once the battle is over we will know ...

Deep in our souls...

That we are now

a survivor...

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Standing alone in the presence of adversity, makes a soul weary...

But when the battle end is in sight..all the weight upon you slowly begins to lift...

And at that point no matter the fatigue that once weighed heavy on your heart..

There will bloom a NEW hope within...

That even the strongest enemy begins to fear....
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I sometimes wonder where my life will lead to..
from here...
I've loved and lost time and time again...
But above it all, there's a calming feeling that comes across my soul when a reach back and imagine where my life would have been, through each lost love...
It's not a pretty sight...especially knowing the misery that was weighing upon my heart at the hands of each love lost...
Misery has a funny way disguising itself...
One of it's favorites is LOVE...

I am separating myself from misery!
If you make me miserable....
your history.
If you MADE me miserable and your already gone....
GOOD RIDDANCE...

When winds of distress blow across the waters of
ill repute...
Always remember,
No matter the storm that rages because of those who seek to DESTROY......
God is always in control

The timeline of God is irreputably unmistakably uncontestibly perfect in every way possible...even though we don't understand it...it's perfect.......